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Donald Trump Pepe Tears
esoteric
February 19, 2017

Donald Trump and the Apocalypse: The Era of Truth

Watching that Trump rally brought tears to my eyes. You can see the genuine joy and optimism in the American people. If you don't see it and all you feel is hatred toward the man, you are under a spell. Asleep in the dream, seduced by the false god of the "love and light" global utopia. Holding on to this…
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Water
personal growth
September 26, 2016

It Feels Like Things are Coming to an End

This past month has been like a 180 from wherever I thought I was going. In my last post, I was talking about becoming a professional cuddler or sexual healer. Well, that's not happening any time soon and I'm not really that interested anymore. It's like the enthusiasm suddenly vanished over the past month and a half. I've found myself much…
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cuddling
love and relationships
July 26, 2016

Professional Cuddling & Sexual Healing

I've been doing quite a bit of research and experimenting with desire and the guilt that I often carry with it. Two people who have inspired me lately is Marcia B and Betty Martin. I have recently read Richard Unger's book Lifeprints, and determined how my fingerprints relate to my life lessons. (Read this post about my rare palms.) Sure enough, when…
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attraction
love and relationships
June 29, 2016

Physical Attraction is So Weird

I've been so fascinated with physical attraction these days. You know, chemistry, sparks, crushes, and butterflies. That sorta thing. Why do I feel that with one woman I'd consider "cute" but not with one I'd consider "hot." I could even feel tingly after just a single picture and never hearing her voice or meeting her in person to experience her…
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palmistry dark
esoteric
June 7, 2016

Rare Hands: Palmistry & The Simian Line

My friend took me to a palm reading event on Monday as sort of a birthday present. (Shoutout to my fellow Geminis!)  The palm reader looked at my hands and said I had a "Simian Line." She called everyone else over too look at my palms and claimed I was a rare exception to the typical palmistry archetypes. Yes, I…
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Lips
love and relationships
May 31, 2016

My Experience at a Sex Party

This is a bit edgy for me to share. I feel kinda vulnerable because I'm breaking new ground for myself. I have talked about my sexuality before, but not in this kind of detail. It feels like I'm stepping into more of my authentic self. On Wednesday I found myself naked at a sex party making out with a girl I just…
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alone
love and relationships
May 23, 2016

Surprising Insights about Love Relationships from a Dream

I've been reflecting on the short love relationship I recently ended. I learned a lot about how I was not respecting myself, enduring painful triggers because I thought it was "good for me" to help me learn. But it was a few dreams that really gave me some insightful clarity. The first dream was about a female friend of mine that left me feeling ignored…
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self date
love and relationships
May 10, 2016

32 Self-Date Ideas

After the breakup, all I could was think about her. I contacted lots of friends and realized I was kinda running away from myself. My thoughts went from, "how do I win her back" to "how do I take care of myself." Messages, videos, and books started flooding into my awareness. The song "Me, Myself, and I" came on when…
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Empty
love and relationships
April 24, 2016

Breaking Up With Someone You Love

Yesterday I had to break up with a woman who I really love and care about, but the relationship was too triggering for me to continue any longer. I am very sad to end what was a short (one month) but extremely deep emotional, spiritual, and physical connection. We fell in love, but she was scared of committing to me…
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Fork in Road
esoteric
April 12, 2016

Following Your Heart vs Your Mind

How do you know if you're following your heart vs your mind? Or more broadly, following love vs fear. One thing I've noticed more and more lately is that most of my anxiety and fear comes from being too much in my head. And then when I can exist more in my "heart" space, I feel more joyful, purposeful, and…
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