On days I'm not productive I feel guilty, like my time on Earth is being wasted. Do you ever get that feeling where you should be doing something productive every second? Or whatever you are doing is a waste of time if it's not making progress on anything important or urgent?
Update: Waking up early for a year, here’s how my life has changed. Update 2: I wrote a full book about waking up early (pay what you want). Or you can also find it on Amazon. So you call yourself a night…
This is part three of my introductory posts on the Maker/Mistaker blog. I'm taking you on the journey of how I got out of my depressed and worried state of mind. My last post covered how I built positive habits and left off with establishing an early-morning routine. My morning routine has been the single-most important factor in my change. But there's one more important post before I get to my morning routine.
My last two posts have been about depression and setting the stage for what's to come. Let's get to something more positive, shall we?
In January I bought Taking the Leap: Freeing Ourselves from Old Habits and Fears, a book by Pema Chodron. Looking back it shows that I was seeking help and looking at spiritual advice. I was attracted to the sense of simplicity and clarity. I tried reading daily but eventually fell out of the habit. Typical me.
In February I felt like I hit rock bottom.
This is going to be my first post in a series that will describe how I have changed since I admitted I was in a state of depression. God I still cringe whenever I say that because I'm still embarrassed about it. I feel like people are going to think less of me or jump to conclusions that something is terribly wrong. One of my business partners admitted he hates seeing me take naps in my car in the middle of the work day; that he remembers doing the same when he worked at a job he hated.